I am not ashamed

As you all know, I have been in the paper and magazine and online news, due to me trying to bring out awareness about writing to inmates. Due to all of this social services had gotten involved because my sons school had reported a family photo being in the news paper (apparently on the front page) back in june when it was in the paper. Which at this time when they reported it they had been told by MASH that there were no concerns, so when the story went online in september the school had reported it again (same one and even though there was no family picture in that one) they as well as social services had not recognized that we were unaware that THE SUN was going to put in a family photo without our consent (which is against the law), anyway my pregnancy has been EXTREMELY stressful with the involvement of social services, I am not ashamed for saying that they are involved because soon they won't be (hopefully).  One day in the car after dropping my son off at school, I had said to my husband "you know I try so hard to help people, to give some people hope and what bothers me is that I'm getting judged as a parent for writing to inmates for helping some men and women out there and it hurts".

The reason why I haven't posted much is because of social services, and the stress they have caused on me and my family, it has literally come to the point where I've come to a halt when it comes to writing because I dont know what to say. I had enjoyed writing to these men and women it brought so much light into their lives. I will probably start up again eventually once everything is settled with my family when our baby arrives. Although it may be somewhere down the road, I'm not stopping just taking a break, because I am not ashamed of bringing happiness and friendship to people who do need it, I am not ashamed for not being a judgemental person, I'm not ashamed of having an open heart, I am not ashamed for being who I am because at the end of the day I know I am a good mother I know I'm a good friend I know I'm a good person. I am not going to let anyone tell me otherwise!!!!

A little something to share

So a while ago Ralph,Raphaels brother had sent me a bunch of his poems to post up on my blog. In the envelope he had put in something that I believe someone had given to him or something he had found. He said he's not sure where it came from or who its from LOL but wanted to share it. I think it's something that's really good and something to make us all think about.


                                                           Conflict and Struggle                           

One consequence of a constantly changing polarity-based system is the reality of conflict and struggle, everything in the universe grows and changes through a process of struggle and conflict.  In order for anything to grow or change it must struggle to do so first.  Conflict is a natural part of growing, conflict is a friend, not an enemy.  We usually hate it when conflict begins, but the teaching says "when the struggle starts, get happy".   It means a change is starting to occur. Conflict proceeds clarity.

                      By annonymous                                 Oct/28/2004