Rough week for my guys.

Well jarrell was locked down for 4 days mis last week or something like that. I had a feeling they were locked down though because Lawrence phoned me then said he had to go because they were calling for lock down.  When jarrell came back he had said that during the four day lock down someone had hung themselves in their cell. 

Today/yesterday I got a message from Steve saying they could be getting locked down as well cause something was going down in the morning that guys were being carried out on stretchers and quite a lot were put in the "hole" but then he was relieved that they weren't getting locked down as things calmed down that he didn't want to be locked down.

My thoughts:
It's not every day that I hear stuff like this, this was the first time I've been told something like this by jarrell, I could tell from the tone of his message that it saddened him as much it did me. I can't imagine what it's like to be on lockdown knowing that something like that could be happening anywhere anytime or several times during that lockdown, anywhere in the building.
What it must be like to live in a world behind walls where crime death and murder still happen and possibly on a daily basis. Maybe but I hope not. Something jarrel said to me was "never try to say that you wish you could put yourself in my shoes to understand what a lock down is because Jamie you don't want to know" he said that because I often say to my guys I wish I can put myself In their shoes so I can understand what they go through everyday what they experience every day...in a way I'm already pin ny own lockdown I don't go out often...I dont talk to many people.

I think when it comes to Steve, that he is in a much worse prison. Well he's in the second worse, where the house the worse of the worse in America and he's only ever been in the worse ones..for the past few weeks all I've heard is how the coppers are going from cell to cell looking for either drugs or booze. He's told me the whole situation in that possible lockdown. And it's quite sad really all on race, from what I've heard from any of my guys is that everything has to do with race when it comes to fights. Like Steve said as well the coppers had waited long enough to get to one guys cell, waited to long only for there to be a dozen guys being thrown into the "hole" and half of the guys not thrown into the hole to be taken away on stretchers.
How they survive how Steve keeps a strong his on his shoulders I don't know, but I'm glad that well that I was virtually there to distract steves mind from what was taking place I say that because he told me it was happening as he was writing it to me....it's sad really....

Anyway on a good note. I got two batches of Steve's poems which Scott has to type out and edit on the computer then once we get back on the net (im using my phone to post this) then Scott can start making a layout for Steve's book hopefully. We've come to an agreement that Steve wants it to be called "poems from behind the walls" he's iffy though about what kind of poems people would be interested thinking that if they were poems about drugs or prison people won't be Interested in them...but one of his poems 'let it be" had made me cry as it was based around how he felt when he was on drugs. So I'm actually encouraging him to send me more like that. He's a good guy and a good friend.

And jarrell has managed to get some guys involved with my blog who are working in things. One guy in general his name is Thomas has given me permission to take some of his drawings off of facebook to post them up on my blog. Trying to find his poems on there as well.
Hes managed to get Brandon to draw me something! Even after I've blocked him lol he's still drawn something for me even though jarrell had to talk him around a little bit lol. So I will have to send him a thank you card:) so yeah that's it lol.

Anyway until most likely next week;)

Love and light.
Jamie