A poem by thomas and then some

THEN I WOKE UP

I wish my words could metamorphosis
I would speak of a fist to hit you with
just so you can feel a tenth of my pain
I drowned in lakes, you dance in drops of rain
some things never change, no comprehende ?
though the world constantly moves without me
how could you hurt me after all of these years
I am dehydrated from all of the tears
all of my fears have come to reality
though I am awake nightmares consume me
how do I shake these horrible dreamscapes
eyes wide open and still no escape
I thought our fate was to be forever
I didn't know it was to be never
I sever all that bonds us together
not even do I wish to remember
this pain is sharp it feels like broken glass
who know you could fly with angels and crash
I never knew bulletproof could be so weak
that you could leave so many holes in me
I bleed, probably for eternity
your love is lava it just keeps burning me
really hard to see when I've been so blind
a broken watch, this thing is a waste of time
I lost my mind, put my heart in a rhyme
why is misery easier to find
why are you able to be doing fine
when all I'm able to do is this time
why do I let you get me all choked up
when your love is but a dream
and then I woke up

-T.G. Thornton

And a haiku poem he had written for his mother. This I would like to share as he's put it up on facebook to go with his haiku to his mom for mothers day and I felt I should share it now I have his permission to use anything he puts onto his facebook page. It's something that moved me as it's something coming from the heart and It really tugs on my heart strings cause it does make you think:
Mother's Day is coming up soon. I usually do not make big deal's of the holidays for various reasons. However, it is most easily summed up in saying that there just simply are no holidays in prison. No reason to celebrate. No one with whom to celebrate with. Only reminders of what one is missing. Nevertheless, my mother- as I am sure all of yours- deserves recognition for her deeds. My mother has watched me get arrested, convicted, and repeatedly sent away for the passed 26 yrs. I think back and wonder just how heart wrenching that must have been and continues to be for her. How she had to sit by idly while her youngest baby broke laws and was punished for it. She must have been conflicted between defending my good deeds and admonishing my bad ones. (And for the record my good deeds outweigh my bad deeds by 7 fold).
There are times I know she must be blaming herself for my shortcomings all the while trying to take pride in my achievements. I can never know her pains in raising me because I have always been on the outside looking in at her. I have always been harsh in my judging her ways of raising me and never did I stop rebelling. I demanding things I knew she could not afford. I hated men she tried to provide as role models for me. I threw fits when she refused to give me more freedoms than I deserved but when I think back on it and look through an honest eye, my mother did not only the best she could but the best any one could have done with a hardnosed case like myself. I have never once admitted to my mother the crimes I have committed but she has always known my guilt and yet her love for me has never waned. She has always been hopeful that I would see the error in my ways and be the constructive and positive person she raised and knows I can be. She has always loved me even when not doing so was easier. When my friends and family all stood up and left the building my mother remained in her seat stalwart and supportive. She has been my truest friend over the last 37 years. For that, I love her more than words can do justice. I have included the following haiku not only for my mother but for all mother's I am sure are just like her:
A MOTHER'S FLIGHT

Along the wings of
pure, tender, maternal love
she taught me it all

-T.G. Thornton

I think both are beautifully written so much talent going un-noticed.  I would also like to share something that Thomas had said to me the other day. It had really truly made my day and braught a huge smile to my face as what he had said meant Alot to me! So I thought I would share it with you all. Well the last half anyway.

" I will post some poetry for your benefit soon. Your blog sounds nice and needed. I wish you the best with that and thank you for giving a platform to those of us who otherwise would not have one. What you are doing is big for society as a whole and the artist as an individual. I commend your work."